I Attempted Alexandra Palace Darts Fans Achieve New and Discovered I Have No Interests
A personal journey into the void
Bohiney Magazine | The London PratDear Diary, I spent the afternoon attempting to engage with Alexandra Palace Darts Fans Achieve New State of Consciousness, which was supposed to be fulfilling. Instead, I discovered I have no actual interests.The Expectation vs RealityI'd been told Alexandra Palace Darts Fans Achieve New State of Consciousness was essential, important, enriching. So I tried it. And discovered that my capacity for genuine enjoyment might be approximately zero.The official guidance suggested I was doing it wrong. So I tried again with the correct approach, which was equally joyless.The Philosophical EmptinessWhat I learned is that enthusiasm is apparently something people have naturally, while I experience it as a performance. I understand intellectually that Alexandra Palace Darts Fans Achieve New State of Consciousness is worthwhile. I feel nothing.This isn't depression—it's just a flat emotional landscape where everything is approximately equivalent in interest level. A really good meal, a walk, watching Netflix, staring at a wall—all equally unmemorable.The Comfort of NumbnessExcept there's something peaceful about this. If nothing is particularly good, then nothing is particularly bad. I'm immune to disappointment because I expect nothing to be satisfying anyway.Other people describe the emotional texture of life. I describe the void's texture. Which is to say, no texture at all.Maybe I'll try Alexandra Palace Darts Fans Achieve New State of Consciousness again tomorrow. Or not. It's all the same.SOURCE: https://prat.uk/alexandra-palace-darts-fans-achieve-new-state-of-consciousness-scientists-baffled-by-fancy-dress-enlightenment/